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Post by + ebonite + on Mar 23, 2014 18:41:55 GMT -7
Breed: Appaloosa x Andalusian x Arabian Name: Anesthesia Age: Ten Personality: Anesthesia is a fierce, proud vixen determined to hold her beliefs. She is harsh, abrasive, and judgmental of everyone in her path. Her opinions are swift and blunt, and she is not someone who will hold anything back, regardless of who they are. She is often confused and conflicted because of what's happened to her in life. She is very easily angered and has a temper to be reckoned with. She is icy, cold, and demanding. Her heart has been broken, perhaps beyond repair, and so she has locked it away deep inside. She sees easily through trickery and is good at picking up the emotions of others. Her loyalty is easily bought by the highest bidder. She is addicted to danger and flourishes amongst chaos. Her unhealthy need for attention is her biggest fault, as she will flock to anyone who admires and compliments her. She has a deep desire to be wanted, and the thought of not being wanted is terrifying to her. She is power hungry and will do nearly anything to get what she wants. She has a large capacity for cruelty, and she has no boundaries or weaknesses. Any alliance, any gender, any age, and she will torture them. Torture is far more invigorating for her than death. She is not afraid to get her hands dirty. However, despite her cruel, demanding nature, she is often self-defeating - meaning that she knows something bad will come out of her decisions, and she elects to do them anyway.
History: Due to her death, Anesthesia only remembers her past in bits and pieces, and has therefore left behind the depression that ultimately caused her death.
Anesthesia was born to Winter Solstice and Archillies. Archillies was not her mother's mate at the time, and her birth was nearly her mother's end. She was born as a deal between her parents, something to keep a little filly out of slavery. However, Anesthesia never once let her heritage bother her, and grew up relatively normal in the herd of Dark Woods. She did not grow very close to the various half siblings she had running around, but rather she grew close to another colt around her age named Antiquitis. It wasn't long before the two of them grew so close that the question of incest was brought up. It was torture, not being able to be as close to him as she wanted, but soon enough, evidence came to light that the two were not related after all. After a horrid fight with several other horses in the Free lands, Anesthesia and Antiquitis finally became intimate, though the pregnancy that resulted sent Anesthesia into a murderous rage.
She gave birth to twins, Incubus and Bloody Illusion. They were unwanted from the very beginning, and it was only due to Antiquitis that she didn't slaughter them at birth. Children had never been in her plan, and they could ruin anything with their constant need for attention. As a result of her frustrations, she beat them and verbally abused them. Often the siblings would stand up for one another, trying to protect each other from the violence she hashed on them. Perhaps she would grow to admire this trait in her kids, but her abhorrence at their defiance only made the punishments worse. Antiquitis never tried to protect the children from her abuse, though he told her on more than one occasion that it had to stop. As they grew older and less dependent on her, Anesthesia stopped the violence and the two of them left her as soon as they were weaned. They took no second glances, and Anesthesia didn't miss them or recognize the horrors she'd put on them until much later in her life.
During this time, she had made a pact with her half sibling, Lateralus, to start up a secret slave trade in Dark Woods. Lateralus brought home a pesky little Neutral mare named Klesa, whom they intended on turning Dark. Anesthesia greatly enjoyed the hell they put the mare through, and was highly disappointed when Lateralus decided to let her go. She and Antiquitis continued to drift apart and have their various problems. It was at this point that a Dark stallion stole her away from her familiar home. His name was Jason Voorhees, and he told her from the beginning that he never intended to harm her. He took her on a journey across Wild Equines, showing her the Free lands, the other allianced lands, and other various places she had never seen before while being confined to Dark Woods. The venture they'd had together opened her mind, and she was grateful to this strange stallion for taking the opportunity to show her the world.
However, despite this, she continued to have problems with her mate. In trying to make it up to him, the two tried for another child, and she vowed she would take more care to raise this child. She gave birth to another son named Jericho. As predicted, though, this did nothing to repair their relationship, and they ended up splitting. It broke her icy heart to see him go, but she refused to be brought down by his rejection, and instead sought comfort in Jason Voorhees. Being in the Helkaer lands was liberating for her. No longer did she have to respect boundaries and family rules. She could do what she wanted, whenever she wanted. Often, she spied on various lands and brought back information, and went on hits. The more time she spent with Jason, the closer they became. Eventually, they started a relationship of their own. It was risky and fun for Anesthesia, who had always felt tied down by Antiquitis. She found out that she was expecting another child, and Jason was excited to welcome a child into their family. Anesthesia knew that she was in love with him, and expected to spend the rest of her life at his side. But, it wasn't meant to last.
Jason unexpectedly left her even before the child was born, and Anesthesia felt betrayed and abandoned. Without him, she did not feel a part of the Helkaer herd. She left it, but she could not return home. At home was the son that she had abandoned as soon as she had split up with Antiquitis, and there was no way she could see Antiquitis again, while pregnant with Jason's child. With no where to turn, and her baby only weeks away, she was forced to return home again and confront her child and ex mate. It was too late for her to mend her relationship with Jericho, who had run away from home months earlier. However, facing Antiquitis was hard enough to bear. She would never forget the rage and hatred in his eyes when he saw her, alone and pregnant with Jason's child. He spat at her and told her that she should have expected this. He told her Jason was the type to leave, that he never stuck in one place for long. He told her she was a whore and a traitor and that he never wanted to see her again. The fact that he no longer wanted her broke her in two, but she stayed long enough to give birth to Satire. But she did not stay long after that. She gave Satire up to her nephew, Recoil, Lateralus' son to raise, before taking off again.
From there, she lived in the Free lands, wallowing in misery and despair at the fact that Antiquitis had been right all along. Jason had abandoned her, as was in his nature, and Antiquitis would never take her back. She was a blood traitor to her family, and she had no where left to turn. She was disgusted by her lack of self confidence that she had once excelled at, but she no longer had the strength or support to find it anymore. It was there that she found Jason again. He told her that he had left for her own safety, that he was worried he would hurt her, but she would have none of it. She spat at him with all the strength she could muster, but it caused him to leave her again. She eventually reached the conclusion that it was better if she were wanted by someone, by anyone. The fact that no one wanted her anymore was so unbearable she could not take it. So, she decided to find stallions to spend the night with. One night and she would be alone again in the morning. The sex meant nothing ultimately, but it made her feel wanted, if only for one night. It eventually did result in two more pregnancies - one to a stallion named Emerson. The child was a filly named Larke, whom she left in the care of Emerson. The second was to a stallion named Alucard, a colt named Drakkan. She managed to raise him for a couple of months before the loneliness finally caught up to her.
Anesthesia died alone in the Free lands. She went to sleep one night and did not wake up. She had lost the will to live. Cause of death: Broken heart/loss the will to live Important Life Events:
- Attempted to start slave trade
- Had five children
- Abused her first two children
- Fell in love with Antiquitis, and then with Jason Voorhees
- Was abandoned by both of her mates
- Became a spy and assassin for the Helkaer for a brief time
- Gave up one of her children to another to raise
- Whored around to make herself feel better
- Sank into a crushing depression
Going to Utopia or The Underworld?(doesn't mean you will get it) Underworld? Secret Word: afterlife
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2014 8:46:27 GMT -7
Vanth welcomes you into the Underworld.
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