Post by ☽ caely ☾ on Apr 23, 2023 21:40:11 GMT -7
I felt my eye lids flutter as I stirred from my deep slumber. My legs shifted, and I could feel the dewy, thick blades of grass buckle or snap back up to their upright possible as I came to. My pink lips twitched and pursed together, my lids shutting forcefully, causing my face to wrinkle and warp as I avoided the call to awaken. I did love to sleep. But what woman didn’t? I could have sworn I heard someone say that we needed our beauty sleep. That was probably mother. Alright there was no avoiding this I guess.
I let my eye lids crack open as my light-colored eyes adjusted to the light around me. I shifted up onto my belly, folding my long legs beneath me as I licked and chewed, trying to shake off the sleepy fog that still had a hold on me. The sleep faded from my visionaries as I groaned softly, gazing at the canopy above me, looking at the light trickling through like beacons in the night sky. The birds chirping came to me next, as my senses began to awaken fully, and I caught a mother robin fluttering from branch to branch, until it came to a nest. I watched curiously, noticing the wriggling worms in the mother’s mouth, as she ducked and I could hear shrill peeps as her babies gobbled down the worms. ”Ah, my darling girl, you’re finally awake.” I blinked at the voice. I knew it well and it had been so long since I heard it. My heart ached at the thought. This suddenly felt.. odd. Something was off. I felt drawn to move, like a puppet on strings, and my small, finely chiseled dome turned to see none other than my mother. The archetype of which I was copied and pasted like a little stamp. Her face ducked in close to mine and her beautiful lavender eyes wrinkled in the corners from the soft, beautiful smile on her face. She chuckled and kissed my forehead, nibbling at the thick, wavy locks that were coming in, just like hers. I realized my eyes were closed and I opened them, gazing up at her fondly, cherishing this moment because my mother… my mother was an angel on this earth. Her name was Cassiopeia. She was renowned for her timeless, exquisite beauty. Not just outside, but inside, she was all one might wish to be one day. She was my hero.. I loved her so much. I felt my chest ache. It was that moment that I realized I had been here before. This was a reverie. And it was the last day I ever saw her. I felt hot liquid accumulating in my eyes, glazing them over, until they filled to the brims of my eyes. I felt the liquid, hot and then cold as they ran down my cheeks. ”Oh sweet child, do not cry.” I heard her say and wipe away the tears from my cheeks as they streamed down. I looked up at her, with glassy doe-like eyes, sniffling. I tried to open my lips and speak, just to tell her all the things I wish I could now. Beg her and father not to leave me. Don’t make me go. But I only squeaked pitifully. I sniffled, pulling the tears back, and forcing them to stop. ”Alright, that’s my girl. Come, we are getting ready to head out, you better get up and eat something before we leave.” I felt like I was not controlling my own body, rising as I was commanded. Just as I had done so many years ago. I shuffled into the sunlight, blinded momentarily by the brightness. I clenched my eyes shut, and ducked down my head, allowing the gobs of wavy tresses to fall before them. I shuffled towards the crystal-clear creek nearby, as I reached the edge, I swallowed as I craned forward and looked into the reflection. I shuddered as I saw my youthful features staring back at me. It was that fateful day. But why this memory… of all the things I could relive… why this one?
I lowered my head, trying to make sense of it all, as I sipped up the cool liquid. Did my brain just want to pain my heart intentionally? I couldn’t make sense of that thought. I turned from the creek and gazed out over the meadow. Familiar faces moving to and fro, grazing, or getting those notified of the band moving. But it all seemed strange… the edges of the meadow were a warped blur and everyone seemed to have a fast blur behind them, but move in slow motion. My eyes scanned the grass, which seemed to bounce with the breeze like it normally would. Magenta and off-white honey suckles, violet-colored bluebonnets, blood orange Indian paintbrushes, and yellow black-eyed susan flower’s seemed to bob and dance, saturated brightly in the green grass, which seemed overly saturated. I blinked, mesmerized by their whimsical ebb and flow.
”Calliope.” The voice jolted me out of my dissociative state, and I gaze up at the looming shadow beside me. The tall, black stallion gaze down at me with a serious gaze. I stared back at the face of my father, who was a great leader and an equally wonderful father, and his face shifted slowly into a smile. But his familiar dark turquoise eyes… I wonder if I had noticed the sadness in them before? I had always loved my father’s eyes. Perhaps it was because every part of me was a perfect picture copy of my mother, except for my left eye, which was a teal, just like his. I would not know for many more years after this, but I was built quite a bit differently than my mother. I had inherited much of my father’s baroque physique, and was much thicker built than my mother. But here and now, I was just a child. I was just shy of my second birthday, and I still looked like a gangly gosling. ”Hello, father.” I said, I could feel my voice get caught in my throat as my chest ached, knowing this would be the last time I was in his presence too. I felt him press his sloped, roman nose into my shoulder and felt him breathe in my scent. I wonder if I hadn’t noticed that before too? Perhaps I had overlooked it. In hindsight, I had not known what lay ahead of me on this day. But he did. And so did mother. I couldn’t help but want to ask him why… but when I opened my mouth again, nothing came out. I knew what came next…
I looked up at the arching trees that had grown together into a gate of sorts. I had been silent the entire way. Feeling the same fear of the unknown, but this time I did not wear the questioning fear on my face when my mother would look back at me quickly. This time I noticed how glassy her pretty lavender eyes were. Had mother cried that day too and I just not noticed? I watched as a thick blood-bay equine darted through a thicket on the path before disappearing into the forest we were starting to enter. I had not noticed that before, but I suppose that was how they were there to greet us. We entered the shade of the forest, and marched into a civilization of equines. Primitive structures and all. Just as I had remembered from before.
It was not long before we were traveling down the path to the forest. I had been so focused on the situation later, that I had not even begun to notice the clouds above us had shifted to block out the cerulean sky and become gray. The sky rumbled, and I slowed my steps. I gaze up and felt a heavy drop hit me right between my eyes. I shuddered and heard the black colt laugh. I flicked my ears back and snorted at him, ”You better not laugh or I’ll make you stop!” My face contorted and I hid my face by looking away. I had not been that spunky before. That was more of who I was now. Regardless, the black colt chuckled as the rain began to sprinkle down on the both of us. I turned to look at him as he stepped ahead of us and stamped into a puddle, spraying water up at me, calling out to me, ”That so, princess? I’d like to see you try.” His thick Scandinavian accent hanging on every word. I took a step back, only missing the largest of the splash, but still getting splashed regardless. I stared at him in disbelief. He chuckled at me, until I jumped forward into the same puddle he stood over. I slammed my front hooves into the puddle, allowing the muddled muck to cover him. He looked back at me wide eyed, and I matched his expression, until he laughed. And I erupted back. It felt nice to laugh. He danced away and I chased after, bouncing from puddle to puddle, splashing each other with muddy water until we were both filthy and winded from laughing. We stopped to catch our breath, and he managed between chuckles, ”Lets go clean off in the springs. I know we’ll be summoned soon. We can’t show up like this.” The smile on my face fell as I was reminded of the moment that changed my life. ”Yeah.” I responded softly, and followed him further into the forest. Down a path we traveled, until we arrived at a cluster of pools. He slipped in and I followed. We sat in silence as I mulled over the looming event. I was so caught up in the fact I was to be given away like a gift to this boy before me, that I forgot about the wolves. Shit. The wolves.
My eyes looked up at Vegvisir and his golden eyes were locked on something. I swallowed, feeling the hairs on my neck rising in slow motion. Before he had to tell me not to look, but this time I turned. On the hill, three wolves stood, and as my gaze met the one in the center, it’s lips curled up into a snarl. It growled, it’s growl echoing over and over, and the other two jumped from the hill. I heard the water behind me rush and turn into a commotion. Just as he had done before, he jumped to protect me. But this time… I wouldn’t stand there like some terrified little girl. I pulled myself out of the water, as a wolf leap up at Vegvisir. He reeled back onto his haunches, and the wolf caught him my a front leg. It swung around in slow motion as he came back to earth. I leapt forward to try to rush to his aid, but was cut off by the other wolf. It shrunk low and I pressed my ears back to my skull. I let me lips peel back from my teeth and my head snaked low. We were in a stale mate. It stared at me, and I stared at it. It’s eyes burning into mine. This was where it changed. My timeline would be my own. I reared and charged the wolf. It turned and leapt onto my back, sinking it’s teeth into my withers. I lowered my head and let out a mighty buck, dislodging the wolf from it’s grip on my withers. I spun and bucked again, sending the wolf down to earth. It wimpered as it hit the earth and I turned and charged it again. Ready to end it’s life, but our eyes met again. It were as if the chaos around us slowed down. I stood staring, and it stared it me. The anger and fear left me. It stood and looked at me with a even, wise gaze. I blinked and looked at it confused. It stepped forward and tilted its head at me. I raised my head, cocking it slightly. But it were as if I knew. It nodded, and a smile formed on it’s lips. It turned on it’s heels and seemed to disappear into thin air. I was brought back from this pause in time by Vegvisir trumpeting and chasing off the last of the wolves. He turned to me, ”Are you hurt?” He said through bloody teeth. I don’t know if it was his or the wolf’s. I started to say yes, but I turned my head back to my shoulder and there was no bite mark. No blood. And no ache. Just a searing, icy pain. I blinked and turned back. ”No.. but you are. Can you walk? We should get back…” He smirked and nodded. Despite a wolf bite on the leg, he marched back to the village and I had to nearly trot to keep up.
We arrived to our herds congregated in the center of the village, before a large primitive, open built structure. Burning red cloth hung from the ceiling beams, and fire lit the place from lit pieces of wood. In the center, a large fire was burning. My mother rushed to me when she saw me. Vegvisir moved to his own mother and father. He explained what happened, and my mother embraced me tightly. Like she had before. This time, I slid my head up over her shoulder and wrapped my head over her withers. I pulled myself into her, hiding my face in her thick, curly tresses. I knew the moment was imminent. I felt my mother’s body shudder as she sobbed, I know it was at the thought of losing me to a predator, but I wonder if she was also preparing to give me away. I felt my heart flutter as I inhaled her scent, and my eyes weld up with tears again. I found myself wishing I could restart this day again. Just to feel her kiss my head and feel like everything was okay. She pulled away and I spoke, ”I’m okay, Mother.” She sniffled and smiled, ”I know, Baby. My sweet, brave girl.” She said softly. She stepped back and my father took the place beside her. I stood in solidarity there, looking up at Toivo, Asa, Saga, and Vegvisir. This was the moment I was to find out I was betrothed and they would be my new family. Toivo began to speak, and announce that we would be merging our wealth and I would be Vegvisir’s bride. The herds cheered and silence fell upon them. I stared up at the four of them, and I looked at my Mother and Father. Sadness and pride in their eyes. I smiled. I knew it was not longer after that they would leave, and I would be devastated. The world slowed again, and everyone seemed to pause. I looked around at everyone, some stuck in excited expressions and cheers, other’s looking on with contempt and other expressions. Things I never noticed before. I looked in front of me and there was that wolf. It seemed to materialize from thin air and it stared at me. Lowering it’s snout, and gazing at me with powerful golden eyes. I felt power surge through me. I felt powerful. The last time I have been here, I had been a crumbling little girl, struck with fear, with nothing to say. Too cowardly to refuse. Too afraid to say no. Two moons from this moment, I would leave under the cover of darkness and never stop wandering… hoping I might find a route my parents traveled… until I found my own adventures. And became the woman I was today. I looked at my mother. Frozen in time. Smiling, sadly. My father, grinning with pride, but sadness in those gem-like eyes of his. This was one of the last moments I ever saw them.
But what if I stayed? What if I never ran in the night? What if I flat out refused? What would become of me if I changed my fate. My gaze fell back to the wolf, watching as it began to fade away. First it’s feet… then it’s legs, and body. But it’s head remained, staring at me. Before it was completely gone… it nodded. I nodded back. It closed it’s eyes and faded to nothing. I closed my eyes, and the world erupted into cheers and loud excitement. I looked to my parents and then to Vegvisir, and the rest of the clan royalty. In this moment, I ran to my mother and my father and begged them not to do this. I think I broke my mother’s heart. But this time. It was my choice. I had a choice. I cleared my throat and raised my head. I closed my eyes for a moment. Thick black tresses dancing around my face and down my golden and white neck. The world grew silent, and I opened my eyes. A ferocious, defiant look danced in my eyes as the flames reflected in my once innocent, doe-like eyes. I stepped forward and spoke, ”No.” I said confidently.
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I threw myself up out of the sandy loam soil. My skin was cold from night sweats. The sandy soil clung to my body as I caught my breath. My mismatched eyes darted back and forth. I could hear the crashing of the waves of Femiet Beach. I shivered and lowered my head into the sand as I stared out into the darkness of the forest around me. I felt my chest ache and tears form in my eyes. I closed my eyes and hot tears ran down my cheeks as I thought about the dream. Wishing I could go back and do things differently, and questioning my life and how I might be different.. or where I might be now if I had stayed and done my duty. Or if I had said no. Either way, my heart ached for my mother. What I would do for one more forehead kiss and to see her smile at me again…
words;; 3297
timeline;; Back in time
character;; Calliope
tag;; ☽ caely ☾
notes;;
Back in Time - Calliope goes back to when she was betrothed and given away. She decides to do things differently.
Bonuses:
- April Showers
- A splash of color
- A special guest - Calliope's mother, father, and ✵P Λ G Λ П✵ Vegvisir (used with permission)
- A new point of view (I usually write in third person.. I haven't written in first in a very long time)
- It was only just a dream (she relives the memory during a dream. She wakes up at the end)
- 2000+ words (3297)
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